



I’d rather have one less blanket on the bed
Since tonight, a blanket has taken your stead
I have the good pillow to myself again
And I won’t have to get up to turn on the fan
Sometimes it’s nice to just take care of yourself
And other times, it seems the worst level of hell
I’m not sorry that I can’t get over you still
I’ve been trying for months yet it remains uphill
I didn’t realize how much I loved who you are
The most beautiful person I’ve ever met, by far
No other woman I’ve found could ever compare
You didn’t take my breath, you’ve become my air
It wasn’t the fact that I felt so alone
It was the fact that you were no longer on the phone
I know now I fucked up, but I’m only a man
My life has no purpose without you in the plan
So I’m telling you now, from my inner most core
You made my life something it never was before
You are so beautiful, and you gave that to me
The fault was my own that I just couldn’t see
You consume my life now, every moment of each day
And each moment’s the same in this bed where I lay
You still have my full heart, and you will ‘til the end
But I fear that this blanket is my permanent new friend
If we are not needed
then what are we?
In this vast existence…that which is not needed seems absurd
and in want of need I don’t want to continue
for purpose is a word contrived and unanswered
Except perhaps in companionship
and when you are no longer needed
your only companion is loneliness,
which bitterly consumes both want and need
in a mire of depression.
A search for meaning yields no answer
So the answer begets a question
When we have no need, why go on?
The grim truth is plain
And needless to say, has been troubling my mind.